fadingmemories

What do you find most annoying about the Pagan Community? Witch Wars. They're wasteful, petty, immature and only result in wasted energy and angry flair ups. The stupid politics. The lack of credibility among some of the Priests and Priestesses. Anyone from a 60 year old crone that's been studying this stuff since she was a child, that's been through the maiden, mother, crone phase, to some pathetic, 16 year old newbie that's been studying for a whole 6 months, to some immature woman that screams pussy at the tops of her lungs in public, that demands sexual acts from minors, can call herself a priestess. The narrowmindedness and dogmatic ways that many of the Pagans fall into (YOU MUST follow the rede just as I say or your not a REAL pagan! Harm none, remember, not even if it means defending yourself!!!). Easily a fall back of their old faith. Those going around, calling themselves teachers and leaders of the Pagan community, then charging several thousand dollars for a weekend event to find out your Jedi Name. In other words, the "teachers" of this faith that have no right calling themselves teachers, that do more harm than good.

Are there any specific symbols that are sacred to you or that you hold close to you? The pentacle. Not because of it's wiccan associations. I'm not Wiccan, but because of the interconnection between all elements and spirit, the balance between the five, which is what's needed for good spiritual health. The Trinity knot that I wear on a daily basis simply because it's the first real Pagan "symbol" that I started wearing. Most any celtic knotwork. Dragons and Fae.

What's one thing that you think the Pagan Community needs? A solid, open minded, understanding, and better creditability. Education that goes beyond what one typically views as just Pagan topics. Put down the books written by star hawk and pick up a few books on comparative mythology or psychology. Pick up a few books on solid pre christian history, not some reguratated nonesense from some femminist Pagan author that's conviced men are the cause of civilations downfall.

The Witches Weekly: A Pagan Themed Q&A for your Weblog.

All opinions may be influenced by lack of soberity. Spelling, grammer and ideas are the damned drinks fault, not mine. ;)

I managed to drink an entire bottle of wine last night and not get drunk, not wake up with a hang over.

Both knees are killing me this morning, on top of my wrists. Need pain killers.

I am right smack in the middle of finals now. MEEP. Means I have a bad headache due to stress. Go me.

I can't find my glasses. I hate misplacing glasses. *growl* Thankfully my vision hasn't changed in the past 4 years so my backup pair is the same prescription. But damnit, I love my geeky, librarian glasses.

I DON'T WANNA START NEXT QUARTER!!!! No Debut damnit. It scares me and I learned the other day all the colors we're suposed to use are very bad for TV. The white looks neon and it glows. bad. The Red and blue will bleed on the screen. Great.

I still need to go christmas shopping. I dont' have the time to though. Wonderful.

I sculpt for the first time ever today. Wish me luck. =P

(not really drunk, I just love that icon, heehee)

I write Matt a, mushy sweet email for the first time. His responce, and I QUOTE ":)" Nothing else. Not even signed. *pouts*

( Want/Shopping List Inspired by ChristinaBlue, for Future Reference (as in, hey, you wanna get me a kick ass xmas present [fill in relative/person here], go here) )

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Yes, that's My new Costuming Journal. I had a few people tell me they'd be interested so I went ahead and created one. I'll try to stop posting Costuming nonsense up in this journal. Anything Costume Related (be it clothing, information, crafts, etc), is going up in that journal.

Sooo, if ya wanna keep up with my obsession and my creations, just add that to your friends list. ;)

Look at what I just found in the garage. One of the rare photos of me with hair this short. This was obviously about a month after I decided I was bored with the buzz cut and started growing it out. It looked a lot better buzzed, lol. Damn uber curlyness. Note whisps on the sides that are still there to this day.



Just because this one is to damned cute to pass up not showing.

I am offically DONE WITH FASHION DESIGN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have my degree. Eeep, that's weird.

It hasn't hit me yet but it will. Weirdness.



I want this shirt!

I feel like I could sleep through an entire year and still not get enough rest.

My god I'm exhausted.

Last day then I can finally relax.

Ugh.

The Debut show yesterday really pissed me off. It was a fund raiser, tickets cost almost $300 a piece. Lot of very wealthy people there, top people in hollywood, majors, etc. School decided to stick all of the scholarship winners in a dark corner in the back. Didn't give us ANY food or anything. The path from the kitchens to the tables was right in front of us so when they started serving dinner, all the food passed by us. We felt like we were not wanted there other than to serve the purpose of "Look, see what we do with your money, we help all these kids out" while they're treating us like shit behind the scenes and kick us out the moment we get off stage. Finally got behind the stage and the woman tells us it'll be at least another 20 minutes until we go up. The students are getting really irritated over this because some of us have Monday classes and finals to study or projects to finish off. I was thinking about skipping this simply because I wanted to finish my project but I was to worried about them not giving me the $5,000 if I wasn't a good lil student. By the time we finally got on stage the students were so pissed off we didn't even care any more. Got this crappy ass star trophy thing and left even more pissed that it wasn't even worth it. The only good thing was those hot male models were standing around in their tight jockeys when we left, hooting and holering at us.

Now I've got to try to finish my portfolio project (spent most of yesterday typing out the stupid pointless paperwork for it, which NON if it applied to Costume design so all of it is guess work) and clean the house for my friends visit. I've also got to study for my CAD Final. Which I can technically fail and still get a good grade.

Gods this is a BUSY freaking week. I am so glad it's almost over though. One more day and I can finally relax some. One more day and Fashion Design is D O N E ! ! ! ! ! !

Debut wasn't as nerve wracking as I expected. Still, it wasn't enjoyable walking up on stage but they had a good 30 kids they were giving the scholarships to. I was afraid it was only going to be the costume and fashion design. Walked up, shook hands and they gave us this envelope with the info in it. It was all individually announced and we all went up on stage alone, but it wasn't half as bad as I expected.

I got the $5,000 one! :)

Nothing much else to say. Never thought my path in life would have me sitting in front of a fashion runway watching models prance down it. The boys really enjoyed themselves. Brats. ;) I hate men sometimes. ;) But I'm not so innocent myself, can't say I didn't drool when the male models came out with those amazing bodies of theirs.

My dad had tears in his eyes when he gave me congrats. That was so cute.

It ended on a really bad note (mom, again) and it really kinda ruined the night. *sighs* She has a tendincy to do that. I often wonder if it's to much to ask for one full night with my family to be good, from beginning to end.

( Photos of the show )

ARGH! Ok, the fashion design community is NOT for me. Over the past year I've become increasingly sick over the materalistic hangups of the students at fidm. Apparently Christian Dior is now selling snap bracelets (remember those!? Came out in the 80's, were eventually banned, sold for like, 25 cents each) with "Christian Dior" all over it in glitter. 3 for $160! And the students are wearing these at school. Some older man came up to my friend and I while we were sitting in the hallway wasting time wanting to know if we were going to the Debut show. Kristen blurted out that I was because I was accepting a scholarship up on stage. This man gave me this LOOK (yeah, you know the look of disgust when you see someone wearing something that's horrid in your eyes) and starts telling me what to wear tomorrow because, oh my god! Women's Wear Daily is going to be there and I MUST look good for the school.

Ok, Number 1) I could give a flying fuck about what WWD thinks of how I dress. I don't care if there ends up a photo of me in their god damned daily fashion reviews ranting on about how horribly dressed I am.

And Number 2) You do NOT, ever, presume to tell me what to wear, espically if your a total stranger off the street.

The Fashion Design community is not meant for me. I'd lose it so quickly if I had to work with these superficial people.

Now though, I've got to go out and search for a gown because there's no way in hell I"m going to finish that one in time. *growls* Why do I even hafta do this damnit?! This sucks. >=( The whole situtation is stressing me out big time.

Oh, I've decided I want my hair like this picture.

It's been a bad sewing day. Serves me right for not having time for a mock up.

First my old iron decides that on it's lowest setting, it's going to get very very hot and melt my material. That sent me back about an hour or so. Then, my normally high setting in zipper skills decided to leave me and I had to battle with a stubborn zipper for way to long. Finally, I try it on and realize it's way to high cut for my tastes and the neckline needs mass alteration.

Do I have time for all of this? No.

Every time I decide to throw out my normal mock up routine something like this happens.

I am not happy.

But at the same time, with the current state of the world, I have no right to complain about anything.

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How about instead of "Freedom Fries" we call them, "Mind-fuckingly Moronic Idiot Fries", seeing as how they will be the only ones who are making a fuss about this

"This is the greatest moment of your life,"Tyler says, "and you're off somewhere missing it."

From Fight Club, the book. Wanna read that sometime.

Well, once poor Matt comes home from his weekly church duties, we're getting together with an old Pagan friend that I haven't seen for years. I'm really excited to see her again. I donno what we're doing, she was talking about a solstice party or something. But we'll see. Gotta call her sometime around 12'ish so I don wake anyone up.

I'm missing my multicolored hair again. :( But I got sick and tired of the up keep. Always touching up roots with bleach, always dying it because the stuff either fades to fast or won't fade at all once it reaches a certian ugly shade of whatever. And the damage. Ick. Breakage would have eventually happened again and the split ends are horrible, frizzzz. If I want my hair down to my lower back, it might as well be in healthy condition. But it's so.... damn....
B O R I N G ! ! ! !
Friends at school insist my hair is so cool because it's such a unique shade and I don't have to do anything with it. Unique shade? Yeah, it's red, very red, but it's NATURAL, that's the thing. And I'm bored with natural. I've had this hair my entire life. I see something extremelly boring, uncreative, BLAH. It just hangs there damnit, gets caught on things, gets in my food. >:(

I'm getting this fetish (well, fetish wouldn't be the right word, love, obsession?) for unnatural, BIG hair. Dreads, wraps, yarn! Yes, I love yarn and I still want to do that one day. Maybe I'll talk my mom into doing yarn wraps on my hair over this christmas break. I'm growing my hair out *growl* It's at it's longest it's ever been. Mid back, several inches beyond my shoulder blades, so I can't do anything drastic like chopping it off or I'll regret it. 2 more years, max, and it'll be down to my lower back/hip area.

But ARGH! I am bored with it again. I feel so damned blah and boring and uncreative recently. People say, oh no, it's so pretty though! Women would kill for hair like that, stop complaining. I blend in to damned much I guess. I always like to push myself to be more and more creative with my apperance. Through clothing, hair, makeup. Yeah, I'm soo creative recently. Yuck.

I need a creative gothy friend that's really good with doing fake hair stuff, that want's to get her hands on my hair. Hell, I'd let them play as long as they don destroy my hair. Grrrrr

It's offical, Storm Constantine's men out hot and out sex Ann Rice's vampires. I never thought that possible, but after much deep thought.

Yes, they out do Lestat and all those other fuckable creatures.

I want these men in the Wraeththu trilogy. *paws* Yum yum yum. Gimmie now. Santa, can I have them instead? I promise I'll be very very good to them.

I think my blister popped from burning myself this morning. It still hurts damnit! >:(

You ever wonder what you look like to others, walking down the street or in the mall? Sometimes I think it would be neat to step outside of myself for a moment, maybe into random people, just to see how I effect others, to see how I appear to others as a complete stranger. Get an outsiders viewpoint on things. I'd like to hear the good and the bad.

On a side note (can't type), it's pvc parasol day! :) Oh I love rain. Off to brave the mall. Wonder how many children and high schoolers I'll kill today, heehee.

I so just found my b/f a present!!!

those kick ass. Gotta admit, the anatomy is done very well too. Of course, I thought it was stupid when the warning says "Adults only as the figures are anatomically correct." Stupid fucking prudish america. So what if it deals with porn! heehee. Naw, its just the whole nudity = bad thing we have going on in this country. Stupid.

*tackle, pounce, hugs lilypotter82* Oooooh that is the coolest present!!! I love it! *big smooch!*

She got me this journal that has "Fading Memories" on the cover. Awesome! Love it! :) :)



Happy Happy Solstice Everyone!

Oooooooooouch. I burnt my finger and it won't stop hurting!!! I can't type now damnit.